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Write now:
I’ve got my pj’s on and I’m laying on a new-to-me bed in Nashville… my first time back “down south” in about 11 weeks. (I think it’s 11. It may actually be more.)
I’m watching the ceiling fan work it’s circular magic and listening to the clackety-clack of my own (loud) typing.
My eyes are heavy; I’m pretty tired… My heart is heavy; she’s pretty tired, too.
I’m feeling… I dunno… apprehensive? As though I’m holding my breath…
I’m contemplating my revolving door life: I hugged a friend goodbye tonight and hugged another hello. Bitter and sweet in so many ways.
I’m thinking about the dream-reel of my heart… and how it feels like it ran out of film a long time ago.
My stomach just growled really loudly. (Did you hear that?!) That means it’s definitely bedtime. Before it becomes another meal time!
I’d love to hear about you–
write now.
Write now… life has slowed… life is breathable…doable… enJOYable… I am looking less to the sky for a house to fall on me… and more to see the sunrise or sunset… or to say Thank You. Write now I am noticing that little nudge that I so often push to the side of my mind… that there is something I need to do that is more… that has a purpose… that I need to do… soon…
write now.. i’m sitting at work wearing pants that have a salad dressing stain on the knee (im banking on nobody noticing), i hear a printer and an air conditioner and coworkers chatting, and i feel so blessed for the weekend that passed and, oddly, sorry that for a majority of my [mostly teenage and early 20s] life, i was ungrateful for blessings as simple as a sunny day.
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… i has a sad in my heart that has creeped up around my eyes and is trying to push out some tears… not sure why.
… i’m celebrating Lisa-Jo and the recent announcement for her and reflecting on the joy of hanging out, all of us, last week *makes heart happy*
… i’m thinking about worshipping last nite w/Makeda and how “right” it felt
… i’m feeling grateful for having the blessing of meeting you, Tracee, LJ, and Makeda and reflecting on that… very grateful *takes tears away* :)
@cassgirl says:
It’s 6:21 in the morning.
My only desire is to get my exhausted body up and to walk a few miles. But I know I can’ t today. I need to meet with stuffy/ staunchy paralegals looking over me and my life and making judgements of how I embraced life, handled fear, and spent my hard spent dime.
my cinnamon tea is warmed enough to drink now, I move from the couch to my porch, suck in, gulp in fresh succelent air.
my quilt following I begin to write…
write now I’m suspended between emotions. trying to figure out why my head’s making such a concerted effort to keep my heart from feeling the full weight of my sadness and disappointment and frustration and self-doubt and insecurity and puzzlement.
then again, maybe I’m glad it is.
i’m drinking an arnold palmer (the BIG can) because it gives me joy, and eating a clif bar because I don’t want to go to the cafeteria to eat breakfast. I don’t wanna go because the people there expect something from me, and right now, I have nothing to give.
I smell great after my shower(thanks to a bath & body works trip), but i’m makeupless for the moment because i’m fairly certain that i’m gonna think I look horrible no matter how long I spend trying to get it just right. because it’s ugly on the inside, and that’s all I see.
onward, soldier.
@bahava says:
write now…
i am sitting curled up in my bed wishing i could see the sun,
listening to i am yours by misty edwards and forever and a day by anthony skinner…with my heart so screaming out the lyrics “i was ashamed, you called me beautiful” and “when i heard your voice and you said my name…my heart it yearns.”
shutting off my third alarm
thinking about how i should get out of bed already and go run that 3.1k scheduled on my running plan
my heart is excited to go to bible study today and softball practice and a birthday party
yet my head is asking all these questions and waiting.
here goes the day….
write now… i’m drinking coffee from my “mornings aren’t magical” tinkerbell mug… this says a lot about me. my family bought it for me on my disney trip. i am not a disney person. i am not a morning person. the mug makes me laugh.
someone is playing stone temple pilots in the background. it makes me feel much more rock and roll than i actually am.
my family is sad; i am sad.
my babysitting gig was cancelled today… no money but YAY FREE TIME.
welcome back down south!!
So fun having you in Nashville. But I get that by you being here, you are not so many places that have a piece of your heart.
Sorry that I didn’t feed you. My stomach was growling too. We should have gone to Krystals. ;)
sitting at my desk at work.
using the quietness of the office to allow my brain to process all the events of my three day weekend.
looking forward to working out my stiff, still sleepy body during my lunch break. :-)
Write now – I am feeling overwhelmed and a little stuck. Everything in my life feels at least slightly out of kilter. I’m clinging to the promises I know are true – that I am God’s child, that He LOVES me no matter what, that His strength is sufficient…. My problem is figuring out how to tap into that strength. I am having a hard time fighting the desire to bury my head in the sand and pretend that I don’t have to face the stuff I have to face. Looking out the window I see a beautiful blue sky and not a cloud for as far as I can see. I think that’s because they are all inside my head, but it’s a great reminder that after the darkness, God always brings the morning.
oh alece–you’re not out of film, it’s just gone digital so your heart can capture each moment instantly for review! :)
write now…I’m sitting at a job that I haven’t really decided if I hate…but I know that I don’t feel fulfilled at the end of the day. I’m ready for God to show me what’s next, but patience is so difficult.
I have a migraine that’s been sitting in my head for the past few days. It’s my own fault for not taking my medicine like I’m supposed to. I was diagnosed with a brain disease 4 years ago, and it frustrates me some days because I just want to stop taking pills every day and feel better.
I want to hug a cloud today–the ones outside look so cushy. :)
I’m in Atlanta getting ready to drive home. Thinking about the fact that in 5 1/2 short weeks this place is going to be home. Terrified out of my mind and super excited all at the same time.
Today is the first day I’ve felt my life is back to normal and back to the mundane of traveling out of the country for 2+ weeks. And I couldn’t be more thrilled. Watching my kids play while enjoying free wifi at a local kids play place. Making them lunch in about an hour, getting them to “rest” this afternoon and then a lesson in manners. Yep, all good.
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– super pumped (!) to be flying to Nashville tomorrow….things are starting to feel real.
– super bummed to be leaving my wife behind for the longest time ever
– super glad that she’s the way she is, which is why I’ll miss her so bad….makes the coming back part better, I guess.
Write now: I am seeking refuge in my cool basement apartment during my lunch hour, away from the sun and heat and mosquitos of the landscaping project I am doing at work.
My heart is aching to receive a particular email that has not come yet, but that could potentially set me off in motion after a dream that has consumed the last year of my life.
I am in anticipation of a 24 hour assembly of prayer and worship this weekend on the Pine Ridge Reservation. I can’t wait to see and experience what God is going to do!
@aeg0707 says:
Write now…
-Debating being happy and sad about leaving my 26th year behind
-Excited to turn 27 tomorrow
-More excited to spend a meal with the people I love the most; the people who held up the sky for me for so long
-Wishing I had the money to buy fresh flowers every day
-Drinking my 3rd cup of coffee
-Feeling the Lord guide me into “what’s next” and have never been more fully aware and wholly excited about being lead
I turned 27 today :)
Write now work is lulling after seeing three or four patients (one I had forgot to put on my own schedule!) but many more patients are coming in later. My heart is excited for a potential romance between two friends but worried over some silence with another friend. I can’t wait for my missions trip in a week and a half and the chance to share something I love with students who have never traveled to serve God and others before-even if it’s just across the state!
@LindseyHartz says:
Write now…
wishing I were still in Nashville :-) so I could see YOU!
mailing a letter of prayer & encouragement to a mommy who just lost her 1 year old daughter
waiting for my kiddos to finish their chores so I can hug them tight and spend hours playing with them
resolving to keep waiting patiently and full of trust for the perfect door to open and the path to be revealed
I’m waking up from a short nap with Con still fast asleep next to me. We cut out his nap in order to help him sleep better at night but today we both needed a little catch up on sleep after a long weekend well really long week. I’m just about due for my period and feeling emotional because its another month that I didn’t get knocked up. I know it will happen in Gods time but part of me wonders if there is a problem and another much darker part wonders if this is somehow punishment for my more resent sins. I just prayed for strength and grace and thrust in God so I don’t feel so emotional when that time of the month comes. On lighter notes… I just finished reading pride and prejudice and loved it. Its me and my sisters fav movie ( the bbc one. There is no other in our book. Kyra knightly makes me gag and especaly sick as elizabeth bennet.) so it was that much greater reading the book. I’m thinking of what’s for dinner and I think I will go with something really un healthy loaded with carbs like tuna noodle cass or corned beef cass. My heart could really use some comfort food. Love you Alece and if I didn’t tell you already, I loved your mini blog series on prayer. Thanks for being so honest and real.
@kamriereed says:
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I am celebrating a Birthday for my big brother. All day I have kind of thought how weird it is for him to be 24. I think about all of the memories we have and will have in the future. I never really realized how much of an impression your siblings have on you till you see them in some of your actions. Then soon after you come to that realization you may be proud or just shudder at the thought.
@XCWATERBOY says:
I’m sitting in a chalet on a certain South African ministry base. I have the option of TWO! electric blankets but they generally get me too hot so they are not on. A space heater is and by morning will have my cozy room toasty. I’m thinking about how pretty the mountain I’m sleeping next to will be in the morning and how happy I am to be visiting. I’m also thinking of how I can spend my summers with Thrive in the future.
And I just watched an enthralling semifinal that finally eliminated Uruguay.
Good times.
@PrudyChick says:
Write now I am enjoying a strawberry Dryer’s Fruit Bar courtesy Gitz’s power of influence over me.
Write now I’m realizing more and more that God is desiring to weed eat, no, use weed killer on the pride in my life and is constantly showing me things that are pride even when they don’t look it.
Write now I’m sad for friends that are hurting and wish I could just give them a hug and sit with them over coffee.
Write now I’m hating that those friends don’t even live in the same state as I do and I’ve only met one of them.
right now
craving Krystals bc a previous friend of yours said something :-)
and right now….. I dont like being pregnant….and praying I love motherhood.
Write now: I’m listening to the sounds of a dvd that the kids are watching in the next room, and knowing that my hubby is there too with his laptop working away on getting our finance spreadsheet sorted after this crazy last week and a bit.
So grateful that God preserved his life last Monday and that he has a very mendable souvenir of his accident (knocked off his bike by a car while on his way home from work) – just two casts helping to mend two broken wrists.
So grateful that the Lord showed Himself so mighty on my behalf last week during the craziness of dispatching children to carers each day and rushing to the hospital to spend as much time as I could with my hubby.
So grateful that today we are all feeling much more like our normal selves after the tough transition from hospital to home on Friday.
Incredibly grateful that this accident didn’t need to be a wakeup call for our marriage – if it had been Stuart’s time I wouldn’t have had any regrets. We have loved much – and I’m so grateful that God saw fit to give us more time to discover more of the gift of marriage.
I’m so grateful for freedom from having to deal with my parents at the moment. The ball is in their court – we are waiting for God to reveal to them what the issue is because for now they seem to have no understanding that they are the problem in our relationship. So much control and super-spiritualism – I’m so glad to finally see (still fuzzy but growing clearer) the root of the guilt that I’ve lived under for most of my life!
I’m grateful for God providing a situation to show me that I am an amazing person – that with Him I can get through any storm. So many revelations this week!
I’m grateful for the Emergency Fund we had – small but such a blessing! I/we haven’t had to worry about finances at all during our emergency situation. Reading Dave Ramsey’s book ‘The Total Money Makeover’ 18 months ago has been such a blessing in our lives!
In summary, I am so very grateful to know God, and to see and feel His presence and His power at work in my life!! Wow!!!
Write now I can so relate to what you said about the “revolving door” thing…seems we have good friends all over the place but not all of them as close as you’d like. Makes me long for heaven even more…what a reunion that will be, eh? And all of our laboring and striving can finally cease…for good. **sigh**
And I am also just now wrapping up some phone calls for the Shaklee side of the house—leaving messages, setting appointments.
And I am looking forward to finishing some painting projects tonight as we prepare for my family to descend upon us next week. :-)
yup…that’s about all write now… love you friend!
Write now…
I’m tired–emotionally and physically–and hoping for some relief or at least a nice trip to the spa soon. There are a million things running through my mind and my heart is grieving for a friend who is going though a difficult time. Right now, I’m wondering why we’re in such a hurry to grow up. Alas, life’s not all bad. Right now, I’m excited that I’m NOT moving for the first summer in 7 years. Praise Jesus!
Write now….
it’s 1:14 in the morning. I’m tired. Lonely. Having many many life thoughts that I wish I weren’t having. Feeling frustrated. Wishing that things in life would settle down, but I’m slowly realizing that that may not just “happen” on it’s own…. almost like I need to pull the breaks on a lot of it. It’s funny how life gets away from you and it goes SO FAST before you even realize it. I feel like I should be planning for Christmas…. the next several months are basically planned out and that makes them feel over before they begin. Overwhelming.
I’m also still up when the rest of my family is fast asleep…. my tea has gone cold but I’m drinking it anyway. My dog is huffing and puffing at my feet.
My heart is heavy because my dear friend here who I adore is moving in three weeks and I honestly don’t know what I’ll do with her gone. It hurts my heart.
And now, I’m hopefully going to wrap up the online stuff and go to bed. Translation: I’ll be there within the hour. ;o)
@mjdagenhart says:
Write now…
I’m trying to figure out how to sit without using my hip or legs for support. I’m starting to think my best friend’s idea to put a pool in my living room just might work.
I’m thinking back to where I was 6 months and a year ago. How far I’ve come…And how far I haven’t. Realizing some things that make me angry and trying to finally give myself permission and the right to be angry over them.
I miss the sanctuary of having an apartment…and how close that apartment would be to my best friend.
My dog is telling me it’s time for bed. She’s been watching over me for the last two days as I’ve been hobbling around and dealing with a migraine. If only she could get me to my room.
I am sitting in a library in Houma, Louisiana, so I can use a computer and reconnect with you and others I have no connection with while we are here with my sweet hubby and all squished into a hotel. But, ever so thankful for him to be working and for the time to be together. Yesterday, we went on a swamp tour and saw ALLIGATORS! Big ones with big teeth and the girls and I held one (not a big one). Eek!
I was thinking the other day that we moved out of waiting for God to reveal work for my husband and into waiting for His plan for us logistically. Waiting. Sometimes, waiting is NOT my favorite thing. But, what better place than to be waiting on Him, in the palm of His hand, watching for His Light to shine on the next step. :) And, there are things to be done in the waiting.
I love you Alece. Wishing you were nearby so we could hang out and have real-life hugs. :) Someday. Praying for you, too!
@mallyflip says:
Write now…
I am listening to the girl upstairs stomping around. She is most likely about to begin playing guitar hero, she is an expert.
I am also feeling the cool breeze of my air conditioner and how marvelous it is.
I am also thinking about how I am not really liking work right now. How my boss snaps at me and my fellow coworkers every day. How she says that she loves Jesus but she never acts like it. I thought that I worked in a Christian school?
I also want to be in America right now. I miss the mother land.
I am also about the check craigslist for jobs in Seattle. Anyone know of connections I could make with some school districts or private schools? That would me fabulous. It wouldn’t be until May 2011… a longggggggggggg ways away.
Ok well that is my “write now”. Also… feeling a little trapped.
write now i’m remembering the time just a few weeks ago that i slept across the room from you – and kinda wishing you were closer right now. write now, i’m wishing i’d had my camera cord with me at friendly grounds, so that i could’ve finished a couple more logos. write now, i should be asleep. okfine, i’m going. grin.