today
July 26, 2009
Today I’d normally be working hard to show him how much I love him. I’d be scribbling sweet nothings into funny cards and trying to decide the best time to give him his gifts. I’d let him know how glad I am that he’s alive and that he’s mine.
We’d go out for lunch. I’d make him dinner and maybe even a cake. Or a pie. I’d have people over and we’d celebrate in style. We’d drink our favorite wine.
I’d give him lots of hugs. I’d tell him over and over and over how much I love him.
But instead, today I will just feel the loss of all those things.
The pain of lost love and tradition and memories and sentiment hurts more than words can say.
And I can’t help but wonder if he’s mindful of me being mindful of him today.
@moweezle says:
:( I’m sure they are!!!
@atangie says:
I am so very sorry…
Alece… I am so sorry…
@danielleH says:
How could they not be?! You are a more-than-amazing person. I’M being mindful of you.
@ventigrace says:
my heart hurts with yours today friend…
Praying for you precious one. In the midst of this, He feels your pain and is holding you in His mighty right hand. Love you!
There are more people than you realize that are mindful of you. More importantly, He is mindful of you.
While I don’t know your specific situation, I know the pain of being mindful of those you’ve loved and lost. And wondering if they still care, if they remember, if they are mindful of you…
Oh Alece, If this is the day I think it is I’m sorry. I wish I could say something to make it better. The love and tradition now missing in my life is so painfully evident on days like this and though your hurt is different than mine I would imagine the ache is quite similar. I will continue to pray for peace and comfort…
You are entirely loved Birdie.
All my heart and love for you right now, friend. All day, I’ll be thinking of you and praying.
I’d even make you a cake or a pie. Or maybe some iced chai for HotLanta.
I love you.
I hear your heart.
((((big hug))))
“The pain of lost love and tradition and memories and sentiment hurts more than words can say.”
Lost love does hurt more than words can say. You also should not ignore that you are loved by many. I wish I knew know what words can make you change to thinking more about all the love of your friends, and your God, instead of wasting time thinking about what was lost.
I know we can’t forget the past, but I also know we can’t live in it.
i’m sorry that i sound so… pathetic lately.
i’m workin’ on it.
this is sad. {hugs}
You are not pathetic…. you are going through some things and we have all been there… I think that is why so many gravitate to your blog, we relate to you and your heart so well.
Alece, you are such a beautiful person… I so appreciate your heart and thank you for letting me read your heart and take part in the small part of you that you share to us.
You are a work in progress like all the rest of us… and you are allowed to grieve what was once your normal…. Love you tons!
this meant a lot to my heart. thank you, anna.
[b]I AM[/b] always here for you
(not sure I got the code right, but I was trying to make that bold)
*cry*
sad for you, friend.
@danielleH says:
did you change this post? specifically…pronouns?