the storm before the calm
July 9, 2009
I don’t even know how to begin trying to sum up the past month+ of my life. So I’m not even going to try.
My hope was that, in the midst of this storm before the calm, I would carry myself well. That I would live worthy of my suffering. That I would honor God and live righteous. I don’t think I’ve fully succeeded in any of those things. But as I read back over the things you were praying for, I can see God clearly in the past month. I see glimpses of His answers to those prayers.
I’m humbled and grateful that you love and care enough to have prayed for me so faithfully. Thank you.
The storm still rages. But I know I’m not alone.
At least most of the time anyway.
I love you.
and the best part of me is with you all the time. promise.
@moweezle says:
You’re never alone… :)
@atangie says:
Peace be still.
I am learning the place God wants us is full surrender. A counselor recently reviewed Paul’s life in chronological order, indicating in the start of his journey he was FULL of arrogance. In the middle he was bossy. At the end he said, “I am the cheif of sinners.” In otherwords, “Don’t listen to me people, all I know is I love Jesus and need him.” People are going to fail us. Some people are going to put our heart through a shredder. We will fail people. To some degree or another if we are in relationship with another human it will hurt. From the range of identifying either, “I am a human who makes mistakes and does good things,” to, “I need to renegotiate this relationship and redefine boundaries,” to, “I need to have a break,” to, “I need our relationship season to end,” all have a common denominator: YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!! My prayer is you remember the conversation between God and Christ on the Cross. He said, “I will never leave you or forsake you.” The cross took the burdens of our own sin and sin from others away from us. This does not negate real pain and suffering you are experiencing right now. God wants that. He wants our good, bad and occassional ugly. But what it does do in this very brave and corageous journey you are in is remind you that He wants to hold you through the process and is very, very proud of you and loves you very, very much. He did not design the pain, he designed the healing. Healing will come my friend. It will come.
I’ve been reading, I just haven’t been commenting.
still praying for you. as always.
thank you, sweet sarah.
Praying God alone–through His Spirit–gives you the words you need. (Rom. 8:26)
Ur def not alone!
Standing with you through the storm! Big hugs!!!
@cassgirl says:
I am thinking of you as my toes touch the surf.
Love you
I’ve heard the first part of this prayer my whole life. Actually, I think a plaque of it hung in my grandmother’s kitchen. But, through Celebrate Recovery I’m learning the second part. I think I like it even better…
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
–Reinhold Niebuhr
Forgive me if I’ve shared it before…I’m finding it fits most all situations…and helps me to keep my perspective in tact.
Glossing…still…
Michelle,
This went to my bones. I made a post which included this/you. Please let me know if problem:
http://roxannekristina.blogspot.com/2009/07/i-oh-so-adore-alece-at-grit-and-glory.html
This was quite a surprise to me, Roxx…thank you for the encouraging words.
“He will make all things right if I surrender to His will…”
i’ve been clinging to His promise to make all things new…
thank you for glossing for me!
You know, it’s made a task I do all day long, almost mechanically…a real blessing for me.
I love glossing for you!
I carry you in my heart and prayers every day. Still pushing up my glasses…..
{hugs}
I just made this post including you on my blog. Let me know if problem: http://roxannekristina.blogspot.com/2009/07/i-oh-so-adore-alece-at-grit-and-glory.html
I love you and miss you dear sweet friend. My heart was heavy for you today so I thought I’d pop on over. ;o) I hope you feel my heart hugs!
my heart was heavy today… thank you for feeling it with me. for carrying it with me. miss you, bran muff.
how’s home???
I love the heart connections made through blogs (and lets be real….facebook..haha!).
Home is okay. It’s nice to be here and to hug familiar faces and just spend time around people, especially my mom and nieces and my Granny, but then there are also those good ‘ol family dynamics that keep you on your toes…. or on the edge of your nerves. ;o) HA!
you are coming back to the states soon yes? I saw your convo with Marky Mark and I am glad you have a “date” with them! It will be so good for you. ;o)
i get that… i hope your time at home has filled up your heart-tank, though.
i’m back stateside already! been here a week. moving down to hotlanta next week… for the next few months. i’ll send you an update soon… love you, raisin.
somehow I feel like I understand where you are. Although … in some ways I don’t think I can. I’m in the middle of a ‘storm before the calm’ as well. And so I relate.