four-minute friday: something
Go.
My brain is struggling to land somewhere I can four-minute about.
I’ve got nothing.
Because I shouldn’t really soapbox about how much I resent the Snowpocalypse that has been kicking DC’s butt all week. I mean, I don’t even live there.
I can’t explain the stressful few hours I had yesterday afternoon, most of it spent on the phone. On hold. And there really is no more helpless feeling than being left on hold for 45 minutes.
I won’t bore you with the story of why I packed and unpacked and repacked all in less than 24 hours.
I can tell you I’ve got that Christmas Eve I-can’t-sleep-cause-I’m-so-excited thing going on. And I won’t even mind when my alarm wakes me up at 4:30 AM.
If you know how un-morning-person I am, you know that’s a really big deal.
But it’s so worth it.
So. Worth. It.
But that’s all I can say.
So really, you should tell me something.
Anything.
Done.
@danielleH says:
wait! Whats going on?! Feeling disconnected here. But i love you.
@gritandglory says:
we need to reschedule a phone date!
my something is:
my heart is aching to be part of a community/family again. and the one i really miss is Thrive. being part of a ministry, a vision, and being able to express that excitedly to others? dag. iMiss.
What to tell you? Well, I went on a women’s retreat last weekend where the Holy Spirit showed me some important things. I was able to meet some really nice women, and I think we may have found our new church home. All of this makes me feel like I’m more here than not.
Loved what you said about your excitement. I’m excited with you.
@gritandglory says:
found a new church home!?!? THAT is awesome, lisa!
Something about me – I’ m packing up too. Headed out on a trip. My first time to travel in for years. Usually my husband does. I’m excited. I’m nervous leaving my babies. That is about all.
oh, loved your other posts, but been too busy to answer them which I hate!
@gritandglory says:
oh wow. praying for you!
@atangie says:
I watched the video over at Mandy’s then I came to read this and it was like I heard your voice saying all these words. Surreal! And so fun. :-)
@maryjohess says:
Umm. . . I have been without internet at home all week so I’ve accomplished nothing. I have 3 blogs to design, a conference to prepare for, advertising for said conference, not to mention the normal day to day stuff. And yep, I’ve got to accomplish most of it this weekend while I have internet access at our shop.
Other than that, my life is pretty non-eventful and boring right now.
Have a great trip (I’m assuming that’s what the packing’s all about).
@Nomadstacey says:
I feel scatter brained too. I feel like I’m in the mist of a vortex of swirling lessons God is trying to teach me all at once. And, while I appreciate Him so actively refining me…I’d kind of like a break so I can catch my breath and absorb all there is to each lesson…individually. Sure, some of them are linked (authenticity and transparency for example) but I’m feeling a little overwhelmed. My heart isn’t in shape for this wrestling match. It feels tired and sore and I seem to keep finding new bruises. As I write this, it occurs to me that I need to stop fighting and start trusting. Oh look….another lesson. In all of this all I can do is throw up my hands and say “God, I can’t do this. I need you.” And in that there is hope because I’m learning I can’t be in control and there is some liberty there.
Stacey, my mom and I talk about stuff like this all the time. One thing she’s said to me on several occaisions is this: God doesn’t allow things to filter through His loving hands into our lives until He knows in His wisdom that we are able to stand it, whatever IT is. Just like a patient must be strong enough to undergo surgery. Sometimes, even though it’s scary, it helps to remind myself that the safest place I can be is in His arms, allowing Him to handle things because I have realized and acknowledged, once again, that I can’t. Of course, He knew that all along. He was just waiting for me to get it.
I so get where you’re at. There are some many lessons and revelations swirling around me it is hard to know which on to pick out and examine. I feel like I am being pulled in every direction and no direction at the same time. And so I find myself telling God, slow down I’m tired, I just need a break.
But then he slows down and I find myself asking, “God come on, where are you? Where am I suppose to go from here?” I find myself wanting to hit the metaphorical gas pedal of understanding and growth. So I am working on trusting God that he does have plans for me. And if its sitting in the quietness and soaking it all in or the craziness of the vortex than so be it. But like you I need to trust him and willingly hand over control, instead of wrestling God for it.
@Nomadstacey says:
Thank you both for your words of understanding and encouragement!
@gritandglory says:
i totally get this.
R U gonna see your pal TP?
I wish I were the TP she might be coming to see! But alas, I fear I am not! – Sigh -
@gritandglory says:
i LOVE how you connected all the dots on this, linda! and i had a GREAT visit with TP! ;)
I’m thinking about all the things that I stop myself from doing because I believe that God is not apart of it. The thing I am discovering is that the gift is from Him and He wants me to enjoy it with Him as part of the journey.
Is what I am doing wrong? No. In fact, it is so beneficial to me. I needed to know that Jesus was for me in this, and I believe that He wanted me to want Him in the process.
my something: i’m so excited for the weekend. my parents called and offtered to take the little pumpkin for the weekend. casey and i get a date night tonight and hopefully get to sleep in tomorrow morning. he has to work saturday and sunday night so i am going to do some things for just me…which i have not done in a long long time! maybe a movie with a friend tomorrow night or maybe get a massage (really want to do that!), read a book…maybe even wear my jammies all day….:)!
@gritandglory says:
what did you end up doing?
friday night we went out to dinner, back home to watch “time traveler’s wife”. casey had to work sat and sun night so sat night i went to dinner and movie (dear john) with a friend. and sunday night i read on the couch in my comfy clothes. as i am writing this it doesn’t sound all that exciting but it was nice to have some quiet time to myself. didn’t get the massage as being valentine’s weekend it was hard to get an appointment…but maybe next time!
@gritandglory says:
it sounds WONDERFUL though…
how was “dear john”?
thanks! “dear john” was good . i cried. thankfully i was prepared and brought tissues
My heart’s attention is on some difficult things that lay ahead in the next several weeks initially, but the fallout will last for much, much longer. And I can’t even talk about it right now.
After seeing the Julie and Julia movie I got the mastering the art of french cooking book. I have been at it just over a month and its going good or shall I say its going yummy;-) its fun planing meals and spending hours in the kitchen. Last night I made a poached fish in white wine along with a white sauce and garlic soup. While i wasn’t a huge fan of the garlic soup it was the first time EVER that dan asked for seconds on the fish. He is not a fan of fish or rice or chicken he’s a picky eater and really only loves red meat. I thought it would be more expensive but I’m saving money by cooking from scratch and having leftovers twice a week. Con said last night Mommy are you cooking leftovers? So next weekend we are switching things up by making a mexican feast for my moms 60th birthday. Authentic mexican is much more familiar to me and something I can master with my eyes shut and as yummy as french food is, mexican is my first love. Oh and by the way, the only courancy that french food accepts is pounds not english ones I’m talking more lbs! Its almost all made with egg cream and butter but it is worth it for now. I will give it a few more months till I shelf the french book and think more along the lines of light cooking. Anyways hope that was interesting info. I’m wondering what your up to. Love you and hope you have a blast whatever it is.
@gritandglory says:
i love when you leave comments like this! ha ha!
Alece- I don’t know you. And I don’t even remember how I even came across your site in the first place. But I appreciate your honesty on here. And that you’re sharing your story. So I just wanted to thank you for that. :)
@gritandglory says:
wow, beth! thank you!
I got nothing :)
SnOMG we are snover the snopocalypse here. It’s snowdiculous it is.
But snowgoodness we are emerging from our snigloos now. I guess its snowmore snowcation for us!
Ok I’m done. Was that 4 minutes?
@gritandglory says:
this made me laugh so much! you got in every snow reference possible! LOVE IT!
my something is: I LOVE YOU and loved catching up mammabird :)
Here’s my something: I am hunkering down for two of the biggest heartaches in my life so far. One involves this precious sweet ball of pink currently nestled in my arms, our foster baby. The other involves delivering a long-overdue message to some people very near and dear to us that could change our relationship forever. I’m feeling calm about it all, though. For now, I have the strength I need for THIS day and am trying not to borrow tomorrow’s worry.
Are you coming up here?
@gritandglory says:
oh wow. so much, friend. praying for your heart.
Not many worse ways to spend time than being on hold and listening to some awful music. I hope things improve for the weekend.
@gritandglory says:
i agree! feels so helpless because i definitely don’t want to hang up and redial and start over at the back of the line!
@bahava says:
my something…i actually wore socks today to work and had to go outside for recess with the kiddos and definitely got the “mom” talk about how i need boots. oh, snow…
@mjdagenhart says:
Hmmm…
Now that I finally have a chance to breathe, I’m using the long weekend to recover from the last two weeks. Hopefully lots of sleep will be involved.
I’m trying to anticipate the next steps with my health so that I can best plan out next quarter (and year) for school…Oy.
Someone backed into my dad’s truck this week…and this time, it wasn’t me!
And. I love you. Bam ba ba ba bam!
@gritandglory says:
hoping you got some rest, ‘risa.
@cassgirl says:
hmmm…..
I’ve been under the weather… they ran alot of tests..
. BUT… I haven’t missed a beat.’
I love you FF!
hope you get better soon, heidi
@cassgirl says:
aww thanks Jessica !!! It’s a matter of recovery. They believe I may have
had a TIA (a mini stroke). The final diagnosis isn’t complete yet.
But every day is better.
Thanks again!!
@gritandglory says:
i JUST now saw this. i’m sorry i hadn’t already seen it when you emailed me. loving and praying, FF!
@cassgirl says:
No worries… I’m loving and praying for you too my FF!!
I didn’t know how to respond to you about the comment you left on my blog. But boy did your words, “to absolve himself from the guilt of having forced himself on you,” hit me hard.
For as simple as the idea is, it seems crazy that it took me 6-8 years to see it. It makes me so mad inside. Everything he did and everything that happened in its wake. I feel like just as I am actually beginning to understand what happened, understand how skilled he was at lying and manipulating, and the affects on my life the justice system is writing off what he did as not bad enough. Its infuriating and saddening and I’m just not sure what I’m suppose to do. I wish I knew what God wanted me to do, where I am suppose to go from here.
@coloraturajoy says:
hold up.
i swear i thought i commented. like a couple days ago.
but it’s gone.
darnit.
@gritandglory says:
weird!
Something about me…?
Well, my stepfather had surgery recently and my mother went ballistic on the nurses. Cancer took my uncle and my stepsister. And my 97-year-old uncle passed away. As he would probably say, “Being 97 will do that to ya…”
(Well, okay. So maybe that wasn’t really about me…nobody’s perfect.)
WOW. Yep, that’s a big deal!
Let’s see if I can put the pieces together … packing, DC snow, 4:30, tremendously excited …
… you’re going to visit your best friend?
@gritandglory says:
you’re gooooood! ;)