for Christ’s sake
September 30, 2009
I’m tired.
And I don’t really have anything to say. Or anything worth saying is maybe more like it.
I want to steward well the time you choose to spend with me at the Grit. I feel the weight of my influence, however small it may be. I don’t want to ramble for rambling’s sake. I want to say something worthwhile. For your sake.
For Christ’s sake.
Maybe that means I put too much pressure on myself, I don’t know. I do know that right now my heart feels both full and empty at the same time, and words seem scarce.
Writing has always been therapeutic for me, and I am sorely missing its healing therapy these days. I need to more intentionally set aside time specifically to write. And read. And camp out at His feet.
Until my cup runs over again.
have i told you about psalm 23 yet?
it’s better in person. i should leave a vmail for you about it.
or maybe blog. ever.
oh. and… i don’t think i’ve ever wasted time at the grit. ever.
@gritandglory says:
it sounds familiar. i could use it again, even if i’ve heard it before!
definitely never a moment waisted at the grit.
Love you, Miss Alece
Never wasted time on here. Something always sticks and has an impact.
“i do know that my heart feels both full and empty at the same time”
oh wow, do i get that!! not that you were asking for confirmation but there is no pressure here to perform. we come by because we love ya and we care.
Everything you have ever shared on the Grit has been worthwhile, Friend.
Alece, one person’s ramblings is another person’s inspiration! You are amazing– just write.
@gritandglory says:
i smile every time i see you here. when are YOU gonna start blogging???
@atangie says:
Did I tell you I got a Moleskine? As of late it has been hearing the words that I feel need to remain between me and God for now. The therapeutic aid you describe has been very present through putting pen to paper, even if it stays private.
@gritandglory says:
so glad you got a moleskine. you’re the second friend this week who told me she got one!
Too much pressure I just like to hear anything you have to say. I’m going to a prayer room at my church today from 10-1 and I will be praying for you a lot. I hope He lifts some of the weights from you soon. Love you Alece!
@gritandglory says:
this meant a lot. thank you for praying for me…
Fill my cup, Lord. I lift it up, Lord.
Come and quench this thirsting of my soul.
Bread of Heaven feed me til I want no more.
Fill my cup. I lift it up…and make me whole.
To overflowing…
Alece, there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ, so please don’t allow satan to “should” you into a routine that maybe God is giving you a break from in order to just rest and sit at His feet and drink from the cup in His hand and feel His heartbeat and overwhelming love for you, sweet daughter. It is okay in all that you are going through to rest … just breathe and rest and know that He is taking care of everything and your job is to just breathe and rest and trust.
There are many of us praying in the gap for you … rest sweet friend and those things that fill you will return or be replaced by other more perfect things He intends for you.
Love you!
A real level of comfort is demonstrated when people can be together and there’s silence and no need to say anything and it’s okay.
The words will come again. Until then, we’ll just sit here with you awhile, just listening and nodding our heads.
Fill her cup to overflowing, Lord. We love her, and we love You and know You will do it.
Im right there with ya sister.
i love you.
I have loved reading every single word in every one of your post.
I love what you say because it comes from your heart. If when you wake up your heart is filled with something other than the words for a Grit post, then spend your time on what your heart wants to do.
I will continue to look forward to more of the glorious grit, whenever your heart wants to write.
@cassgirl says:
until the OVERFLOW….
I sit here and hold your heart.
love you
@chrystieecole says:
I am so there with you. Total loss for words lately. Even at a loss for words to comment. But, I am praying for you. You are loved sister in Christ.
Only love coming your way!
@coloraturajoy says:
i know exactly what you mean.
hmmm….even in your confession of a loss of words you say it so well. I still think you should consider writting a book…that’s me beating the same old drum. funny ..you say you feel at a loss for words for your blog…so i suggest you find enough for a book….i see the irony, but it still could be a God or maybe just a good suggestion. ;)
You remind me of the verse Ps.45:1 that talks about your tongue being a pen of a ready writer. I see you this way, that you are always ready to speak words that help challenge us in our walk with Jesus…your words are truly impactful.
Your ability to write through the pain (and the intense quality with which you do it — on so many levels) completely amazes me. I’m serious. But I would hate for you to feel pressured to write. So I hope you don’t. I haven’t been able to write much at all. I’m looking forward to that ending, actually. God is teaching me SO much. Sometimes it feels like I should share, you know? But then it feels like the fruit is green on the trees, too. Like it needs time still to ripen. He will bring forth fruit in His time.
@hannahruthie says:
I know what you mean. I use writing to de-stress, let my emotions out. I think of it kind of like filling up a balloon with all of this air (air being all the stress and daily things that I can’t deal with myself), and sooner or later some of the air has to come out or it’s going to burst. Writing is like letting all the air out. Recently I haven’t been writing as much or putting as much feeling into the things that I write. I’m missing the “writer’s high”…whatever that means. huh. well I know what you mean.
@Nomadstacey says:
I think I’m at the same place as you when it comes to journaling. I decided to switch it up and have starting journaling in the third person. I thought it might offer new insight on too-familiar feelings. Sometimes it does, sometimes it doesn’t. Sometimes I’m too scared to start journaling because I know it will be hard to write and hard to process what I need to write.
Another thought, do you think you feel that you ‘should’ have something to say before you write it here? Should is a powerful force in both of our lives (even if I don’t follow it as much as I should…hmmm). Perhaps it’s part of our A-ness.
PS Saw U2 while they were here. AAHHHHHH-mazing.
U2? Amazing? Oooh, YEAH!!!
@gritandglory says:
oh i’m definitely ruled by the ‘shoulds’. i’m trying out a new mantra: i need to stop shoulding on myself. let’s see if i can keep that on repeat long enough to replace the shoulds.
and your line about the fear to journal because of how hard it will be to process what you need to write? yeah. that’s me. everyday.
which is why i haven’t written (journaled) in weeks.
sigh.
I miss writing, too.
And I most definitely miss having time to write!