wordless
I’m feeling wordless tonight. Maybe it’s just because I’m so tired. I haven’t slept much this week. But I’m hopefully gonna remedy that this evening. We’ll see.
I digress…
It’s not that I have nothing to say. Oh, I’ve got a whole storm going on inside and around me. But trying to put articulate words to it all requires more energy than I have to give. And I’m not talking just physically.
This is a month of telling. My personal storm is becoming public knowledge. And I feel like I’m wincing, holding my breath, as I brace for the impact.
The reality of all I need to say over the next few weeks—all I’ve already begun saying—weighs heavily on my heart. And feeling wordless on Day 3 concerns me a bit.
So would you do me a favor? Pray for me? For strength and peace and… words.
And since I’ve not really said much of anything, how ’bout you tell me something. Anything.
Thanks, friends.
to answer you question. yes, I will pray for you!!
let’s see, tell you something. anything?
i have no idea what God has called me to do. you’d think i should know by now, but i don’t have a clue.
i listen. i wait. and wait more.
i have dreams but they seem so distant.
gosh, i went all whole milk on you, maybe i should’ve gone skim.
here’s my skim…
i saw someone today with their toenails painted red with white polkadots today and i am so going to do that on my pedi visit :)!
haha, for some reason I read TONSILS, not toenails, and my first question was of course… how did you get a look at their tonsils? Shortly followed by, how on earth did they paint them?
Oh dear. lol
Haha! That is funny!! your tonsils probably were all red with white polkadots if you had to have them removed! :)!
that’s exactly why i had mine extracted! :)
That does sound cute! I may try that myself…
i love your whole/skiim milk thing. i’mma steal that one!
thanks!
I’ll tell ya what’s on my mind…..my husband’s business meeting tomorrow. It’s kind of an important one and we are both pretty stressed about it. If it goes well, this meeting could take his business in a very exciting direction. If it doesn’t go well, he’s going to be highly discouraged. We’re praying (not just for us, but for you too).
saying a prayer…
Hmm…tell you something…
Today, i was passing through our student union during the busiest time of day…so there are thousands of students wandering around…and right outside of the student union is a guy standing next to a urinal yelling, “Make sure you wash your hands after you pee. One out of five people don’t wash their hands and this is why all of the germs keep spreading!”
I’ve been wanting to tell someone that.
Probably not exactly what you were looking for, haha.
That’s hilarious and I just choked on my dinner laughing HARD!!
i think my favorite part of the story was “i’ve been wanting to tell someone that”!
love you jodes.
UPDATE: Today the same people were chasing students down to give them hand sanitizer. Literally. All attempts at avoiding eye contact and trying to sneak past them were futile; they would chase after you. Apparently, I was person #80 to receive the sanitizer.
And though they had the hand sanitizer in one hand, they still held a urinal in the other hand.
wait. what?! how were they running with a urinal!?!?
haha…they held it with only one hand. quite impressive, really. :)
Fiercely praying
Hmmm… I can say so much.
I am getting ready for my big PAC nW trip next week and I have a couple worries.
1. I bought red hooker heels, I am so conscious, I am almost 43 yr old mom of 3 in hooker heels… RED!!! Branmuffin will be shocked.
2. I want it to rain, not on wedding day, but just one day, I ache for the smell.
3. I am meeting family I haven’t seen in 30 years.
4. Oh my hair is going in a updo for the very first time. EVER!!
5. I am going to my very first “flower” child wedding .
Last but not least I am meeting Tammy (Tam) Hodge for the very first time. (don’t tell her) but I am all excited but also scared to hell I will freeze when I see her. She’s been my strongtower for along time, All i can think of is will I have enough tissue?
have a great time, Heidi!
I will Jessica… I will!!
sweet girl, you won’t freeze. you’ll melt into a puddle of love and happiness. you both have so much love for each other that you won’t have to worry about meeting expectations or freezing up… you’ll just take a deep breath, sigh, and be glad you get to see face-to-face what your hearts have seen for such a long time.
Just relax and enjoy. And hug her for me.
Many hugs for ya Girl.
Love you Gitz… I am so glad God is giving you strength,
let’s hope Tam doesn’t read this! I am super jealous!! I wish I was there. *sniff*
I had a dream about the red heels! ;o) I want a picture! love you!
She so knows that I am coming. We’ve talked about it sin January, But as the days move on the more excited I get and nervous. She’s been my sister for so long. Now I get to touch her, share sushi with her, eyeball to eyeball talk. We get 2 hours that’s all.
Red hot heels… Pictures for sure
i am so so glad for you — for this trip. for so many reasons, not the least of which is that you get to have some tam time. so happy for you!
In the secret, in the quiet place
In the stillness You are here
In the secret, in the quiet hour I wait only for You
’Cause I want to know You more
I want to know You
I want to hear Your voice
I want to know You more
I want to touch You
I want to see Your face
I want to know You more
such a good song…
Well last week was plagued with with a lot of stress and heavy decisions. Along with supporting my wife threw this time. All tho the decisions are not over and stress far from complete. GOD is in control! And on the up side in about 5 hours I get to see my son. It has seemed like forever. I know he has changed a lot. I can’t wait to seem him!
i look forward to hearing about your reunion with josh!
Josh, Is was so great to see him. Been just hanging out and doing odd things he wants to do. He is so changed and so the same. It is had to explain. I guess the best way to describe it is the navy has taken his innocence. An example is a friend of his he had been witnessing to had never had a bible, and he was shocked that he had never owned one, so he gave him his first bible. He has grown up so much in such a short time. It is hard to see him grow up and sorta move on as he was not just a son, but he also was my partner in crime so to speak. It wasn’t uncommon for us to get in trouble together. Like the time we were wrestling in the living room just before Christmas, our feet got under the tree presents and ornaments went flying. You can say “mom” wasn’t impressed. You can say I am very proud of the young man that stands before me. And Sadden by the loss of the little boy that once was.
mmmm… i get that.
i’m so glad you were able to have that time with him. i am sure it meant a lot to him, too.
I will definitely be praying for you Alece! The book of James is probably the most comforting book I’ve ever read. I could tell it all to you here but that’d be a lot. Give it a read.
mmmm… thank you, marc. i’mma camp in james this week!
“Now when they bring you to the synagogues and magistrates and authorities, do not worry about how or what you should answer, or what you should say. For the Holy Spirit will teach you in that very hour what you ought to say.” – Luke 12:11-12
Something to tell you…. hmmmm……
One of my favorite things in the world to see here is this:
Every Fall and Spring for about two weeks, I see a very old man who’s a farmer, decked out in full Bavarian gear and with a long beard, riding his bike and shepherding sheep and baby lambs. They go by the front of the house like clockwork every night. With a staff in his hand and a basket of food on the back of his bike, they follow him obediently, BAAAAA-ing away. The mama sheep stay on the outside to protect the lambs. Sometimes the little ones look like they’re going to trip, with their gangly legs and long ears. If anyone tries to break free from the pack and do their own thing, there are always a couple of young children that take up the rear (the shepherd’s great-granchildren, maybe) to help them back in line. It gives me such delight to see this scene!
i love that promise of the Spirit teaching me what i need to say. another of my favorites is psalm 81:10 — “open wide your mouth and i will fill it.”
and i love me some baby sheep! so enjoyed hearing about that… wish i could get back to garmisch for a visit while you’re still there. so beautiful!
Sounding board / editor for hire – real cheap. ;-) Will work for peanuts.
so sweet! thank you for your email – i’ll write you back soon!
Definitely praying for you! Love the conversation God has with Moses in Exodus 4:10-12 (NLT) “But Moses pleaded with the LORD, “O LORD, I am not very good with words. I never have been, and I am not now, even though you have spoken to me. I get tongue-tied and my words get tangled.” Then the LORD asked Moses, “Who makes a person’s mouth? Who decides whether people speak or do not speak, hear or do not hear, see or do not see? Is it not I, the LORD? Now go! I will be with you as you speak, and I will instruct you in what to say.”
You have a beautiful way with words. Your spirit, His spirit, shines through. He will provide the words.
Now, tell you something…Today, I am discouraged and considering walking away from a dream. Heavy, huh?
thank you for that reminder from moses’ life. so fitting for me right now.
i’m sorry to hear you’re so discouraged… i’m here if you want to talk it out at all.
Yesterday Wes and I saw a guy with 4 toes…yep…..4! We just met this guy…an elderly man with a long white beard, pack rat whose house was full of stuff so much I was standing in the kitchen and had NO idea. and yes….he dared to take his sock off right in front of us and show us the 4 toes..I had to hold in the laughter that was literally about to overtake me. It reminded me of an Office Episode…
praying for you.
did he LOSE toe #5 somehow? or was he born with only 4??
Basically, he was telling us of some health issues so we asked if we could pray for him. He then proceeded to tell us that his toe was removed because of an infection..they were ganna take his whole foot but decided on just the toe. He then was telling us how gross it was….as he proceeded to take his sock off. I was bracing myself, but when he showed us…it wasn’t bad at all…just a missing toe, looked like it had never been there. He had a random growth further up his foot…so we prayed for that. It was awesome to pray for him…but looking back I laugh because it seemed like a TV episode of some sort. Never saw just 4 toes before…
I am also feeling wordless as of late, but I can tell you that I am most definitely praying for you!!! (longer email to come later).
mmm… thanks, mo. love you.
Praying! Praying! Praying!
Remember this Alece … this life story you are living, it is not your doing and it is God’s story. It is His unfolding love story for you and with you.
I pray, Lord, in the midst of all this that Alece will see herself as You see her … lovely, a most beautful bride, a beloved daughter, close to Your heart.
Amazing things are coming! Amazing things!
it is His story… for His glory.
thank you for the perspective!
I can definitely identify with bracing for the storm to hit. One thing that happens to me when I’ve done that is I start focusing a lot on myself. Me, me me. ME. So I recommend more QT with God than usual during this time. It’s easy to get so caught up in it that you let time with God go altogether (at least it is for me). God is right beside you, holding you close. And look at all these people here to support you too! Praying it all goes far better than you’re expecting.
thank you for the honest heartfelt challenge. i needed to hear that.
and i so appreciate your prayers.
I’m praying.
Heidi I want to see pictures of the up doo and heals! You are going to look great.
Alece I just thought of something fuNny to tell you. Remember back when you were bloging about using your computer in odd places. Well we got rid of our Internet and cable in feb and dan just got me a blackberry storm for internet and stuff. The other night I was checking your blog while on the toilet and today (don’t tell dan) I checked it while driving! That should give you a laugh or reason for concern. Ha ha
awesome!
i just got a blackberry storm, too. still getting used to the keyboard, but i’m liking the phone more every day. you likin’ yours??
I don’t have much to say, but then again I feel like I could babble for days about the nothings that consume my mind.
Right now I am wrestling with God about a few things. I am not sure what He is telling me, but I feel so strongly that He IS telling me something. And the devil knows it. We’re all three wrestling.
My mother in law is coming this month (while I’m in Nashville!!! YEAH!!!) and I’m excited to have family in my house. My mom is coming in November and that thought makes me happy/sad/nervous all at the same time. This will be her first time seeing where we’ve lived for over a year and a half.
I have the flu. It’s lovely.
Hours from Alece …. go grab on her!!!
Hours… hours… hours…. Bran. Don’t miss this chance!!
hope you get feeling better, bran.
sigh.
i can’t wait to hug you. i got a thumbs up from my friend in Nash — that weekend will work for me to be there! cannot wait!
the flu!? that sucks, raisin.
I love the phone but I was not sure if I would use the internet enough to make it worth the extra money I spend. I think its worth it when I can reconnect with folks like you.
Over 100 words in a “wordless” post. You do better when you have trouble thinking than I do on my best day.
You are one of the most articulate persons I know. The words will be there, the hard part is saying (writing) them out loud. Listen to what all your blog buddies are telling you. Given your honesty, and the fact you write from your heart, you will succed in your challenge.
Words – beach, sunrise, waves, sea air, bikini, ocean swans, children playing, old men playing boccie, flowers, little piping plovers dive bombing cats, dunkin donuts, new belt, Van Morrison Moondancing on the car radio, Chill dog, the gazebo by the waterfall in the park, young mothers pushing baby carriages, dogs leaping for frisbee, kids on park bench flirting, stately trees guarding my walk, the war between the blue jays & squirrels for nuts, neighbors watching their children on the swings, home. Brain battery dead.
“you are one of the most articulate persons i know.” thank you, ed, for making me smile.
and i thoroughly enjoyed your long list of words!
I love you. Sorry things are sucky.
Tell you somethin,… I hate when people keep telling me “it will get better” and “I’m praying for you” and ” I know these people who….”. I’d rather they jus listen to what I am saying and hug me, cause that’s what I need.
Again, I love you and I hope that someone is hugging you everyday.
we christians are good at spouting out some rhetoric.
i would just hug you if i could.
Hugs! I wish I could give you one for real….I will be holding you up in prayer to be strong…I know you will need lots and lots of strength…oh alece! You have no idea how bad my heart hurts for you!!!!
Some of my favorite people are kindergarteners. Just got new recruits in Wed. Going through some exercises with them. Told them the next one was called popcorn (They lie on their backs, curl up in a ball and then pop out when I tell them to). One bright little boy goes, “So we get to eat?”
No sir, but you just made me hungry.
On a more serious note: There is hope. Its just the unseen kind.
Alece, guess what? I’ve been praying for you even before you asked just now. And you are inspiring me to blog on my new blog. :) In Him…..Linda
so glad you’ve been blogging more frequently. i am SO behind on all my blog-reading. can’t wait to catch back up!